another inspiration: tita da

yesterday, august 28 was my tita da's birthday! i greeted her through sms because the birthday card i sent will reach her in a month perhaps.(yeah she still prefers to receive snail mail).she sent me this mms taken on her birthday! deutschland is sunny on her birthday!

my tita da got married in a very late age to my german (yeah think nazi hahaha) uncle, herbert.with that being said, they dint get the chance to have a kid on their own and lucky me, my tita considered me hers.when i was struggling so hard in college because of finances (read: girl stuff like clothes, shoes, et al) she texts me just in time to give me extra allowance.how awesome is that? and i don't even have to ask. on my graduation day, she gave me grad money enough to spend 5 days in boracay and to buy a new phone.i could blabber the whole day to let the world know that i'm the luckiest niece on earth for having a tita like her.I LOVE YOU TITA DA! i wish you would come home for a vacay again soon :D 

photo credits: the other photos were taken january 2010 during the fam reunion :)

my newest inspiration: steve jobs

this week, i have been really anxious through out.a lot of questions unanswered.a tough decision to make.and just a few days left to beat the ultimatum.i searched for clues and answers everywhere.from colleagues, friends, my mentor, from a janitor (yes seriously), from the building security guard and the list continues. but all they could answer me is, "it's for you to make jas" (yeah right!)

in my quest, stumbled upon the resignation of steve jobs.
"Apple chief executive Steve Jobs, who almost single-handedly changed the way people around the world consume music, the Internet and even TV, announced late Wednesday that he has resigned as leader of the company he co-founded in his parents’ garage."


and just like the stalker that i am, i went through every link that i can find for him. guess what? this link im going to share next is the thing i actually needed to hear. 

these are some excerpts which i draw some inspiration, just read on:

"you can't connect the dots looking forward, you can only connect them looking backwards. you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. you have to trust in something. gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever."

"sometimes life's gonna hit you in the head with a brick. don't lose faith."

"i am convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that i loved what i did. you've got to find what you love. and that is as true for work, as it is for your lovers."

"remembering that i'll be dead soon is the most important tool i've ever encounteres to help me make the big choices in life. because almost everything-- all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure-- these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important."

"your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life.dont be trap by dogma which is living with the result of other people's thinking.don't let the noise of other people's opinion drown out your own inner voice.and most important, have the courage to follow ur heart and intuition.they somehow already know waht you truly want to become everything else is secondary."

mr. steve jobs, i thank you for giving me the inspiration today! you don't know how much peace of mind you offered today! you are now added to my list of inspirational people!

song of the day :)

so there is this one guy i'm crushing and he crossed my mind tonight ♥

song of the day :)

the lyrics don't really speak of what's on my mind right now but the piano accompaniment seemed to calm and comfort the raging thoughts i have in my head! it is so difficult to be an adult.i want to regress to my grade school years when the hardest decision i have to make was to choose between buying a sandwich or safari (yeah the corn junk food which happened to be my fave) for recess :((

a lil summer in august!

i have always been a water-baby! i love to swim and have fun when i'm in the water.i can stay all day under the heat of the sun without feeling less conscious of havin chapped skin! last sunday, i went swimming with friends at maribago bluewaters ☼ i was more than ecstatic and these photo vomit will show! btw, most of these photos are from venus' cam because i was too excited to swim that i dint get to take my own. (yeah, worst blogger ever) hahaha

bluewaters is located in mactan.it is about 30-45 mins drive from the city.on sundays, the entrance fee is 700php but on weekdays it's 800php.the place and the facilities is a lil bit pricey but if your working, treats like this is something you can reward yourself ☺

meet my friends: (l-r) sheryl, hannah, venus, val, and rich

early morning coke sesh :D that guy on the right side is jp.he was our superman for that day.the most generous boss ever! too bad he ain't joining our sesh.he is into "say no to alcohol" campaign :D

that's me and venny ready to swim our hearts out :)

hahaha, yeah never mind that guy hahaham (peace jayps)

well i really don't wanna post this but i think im mature enough to accept defeat! haha i bet with jp (we promise not to tell anyone about the bet, we shook hands like real bros) on swimming! and boy i was just trailing behind him like a real loser! arggh but hey, he has longer arms and legs and he's a guy :((

water-baby ♥

LIFE IS A BEACH ♥

we had a very late lunch that day but you gotta check it! if you have a lunch like this, you don't mind waiting.

this is one of the most famous STK in mactan! i remembered we had joma's bday dinner in this exact same place! seafood is love! and btw, this lunch isn't kkb.this is a treat from jp! HE ALREADY! haha we really dint do anythin extraordinary.maybe, he is just generous by heart (ahem) or he doesn't have a choice! hahaha

the food that we order looks like it's an all-male-super-duper-hungry-bunch type! but nah-ah, all these food are for the sexy-two-piece-wearin-type girls but hungry just the same! haha

friends that eat together, stay proeburr!

too much flash! haha im not yet done okay? im just halfway here! i think i was able to consume 1 bowl of rice.hungry much huh? not really, i eat like a guy you know haha and my dad taught me not to leave anythin on the plate! hahaha

the must try and the best ever that lunch was their shrimp cooked in butter and sprite i guess.haha.it's garlicky and a lil bit spicy on the side! and of course the black seafood which is cooked like adobo?!?! hahaha yeah, the pusit is what i meant! (this is my 4th time to eat here, and i always always order that dish) and i still don't know the exact name of that dish! hahaha

everything about this day was awesome! i've never been this happy in my entire stay here in cebu! for once, i proved that having new friends and moving on is such a happy experience.later did i realize that choosing to stay in cebu was not a bad decision after all ☺ i will never ever forget bacolod but i know it's just there waitin for me to truly see where i need to be in my life right now! 

yeah, that's me askin my cards on who i'm goin to be and what my next plans would be! hahaha well, guess what the cards said? "hmm, stay!" hahaha i don't wanna be biased, but i think i'm happier compared to all of my companions combined! hahaha i was the last to get out of the pool that day.til the next session guys! i hope that wasn't the last! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR TODAY! X

song of the day :)

and i wish it is night time again..i would love to see myself starin at a moonless dark sky with lighters floating like a care-free kindred soul..i wish..i wish..HAPPY MONDAY J!

song of the day :)

stay close to me, stay close to me
watch the world come alive tonight..

thoughts leak..yet again

i have been into an emotional and psychological struggle lately.yes, i know people around wouldn't believe that i still go through a hell lot of struggles because i mastered putting up a good front.i could still muster a smile outside especially when i'm at the office or i'm with colleagues because i don't really want to share negative vibes as much as possible.so, if i can still hold it all together, i will.that's just me, you know.

so yes, i have a lot on my plate these days.the upcoming board exams, my career, my family, my relationships, and just about every little thing that mattered to me.everything seemed to be crashing down on me and added to that ordeal, i'm hurting and trying to mend a broken heart.(that's because i never learned) and yes, i'm feeling empty and inadequate altogether.i know that for the past years, my faith has taken a backseat and i think days like these are perfect opportunities to grasp what's really missing.

i have been raised in a conservative christian home.and back in the day, my mom and dad would not allow a day to pass by without reminding us to talk to God.they have been very consistent about it and it's one of those things i will always miss them most.when things are crumbling down it wasn't so difficult to fix back then because there was always mom or dad to remind me.

right now, it's different because i have to realize that on my own.i know i have not been really faithful to my God and it makes me feel awful.not 1 million gummy bears could make it feel any better.the good thing though   is that, even if i haven't been faithful, he remains faithful to me! i realize that he is still the same God i prayed to when i needed the confidence for my first piano recital.he is the same God, i pleaded to take away the pain when i had the worst chickenpox in the world.he is the same God i haggled with to give me a baby brother because it was what my dad wanted.

bottomline is, no pistaschio ice cream, no gummy bear, no frosty chocolate cake, no chicken wings (although it's better when there is), no comfort food at all can make me feel better unless i rekindle that little faith in me-- believing that there is some BIG GUY up there who watches and does things that would either better me or mold me into the kind of 'hearty' HE always wants me to be.so there's no heartache or struggle too big without me overcoming it!

this song spoke to my heart :)

song of the day :)

now tell me, how do you park an awesome thang like this?

some things in life are just way too cool ☺