day 1 of the 30-day challenge

Day 01- Your current relationship status, if single discuss how single life is.

i wanted to write about a happy and amazingly fulfilling love story slash relationship status. unluckily, my relationship status as of today is on the rocks.i say we've been on a not soo good misunderstanding which actually ended up with me logging off from our skype sessions.we get into feisty word war and i hate it.i hate it that i have to defend myself of things which aren't true.

he said he is complicated and im not ready to take that.i said we can simplify things and move forward but he has some other issues about how i behave, who my friends are, about my facebook privacy setting and all that crap.

i've been trying so hard to be understanding but its not appreciated and its not seen.

so to cap it all off-- im technically in a relationship as of today since we haven't talked since last night.im blocked from his facebook and no sms too.whew! one week into the new year and things aren't as good as it gets.
im crossin my fingers for better things to come and better things to look forward to.

the 30-day challenge :)

not my thiiing

it's my first week as a practising CI and guess what? i dont like it a bit.this week is duty week and besides from waking up early, there's practically nothin to do in the station than talk and check my classmates' notebooks and requirements.

the day is always a drag in the hospital and at the end of the day, i dont have anything to be proud of except i have a boring day once again.and surprisingly, without anything done, my energy is drained when i get back in my room.

aww well, some things are not really meant for us and i guess being a CI is not for me, obviously.i don't like standing around without making a difference and being unproductive.i hope next duty week would be something practical and beneficial.looking forward to another day :)

fleeting thoughts

“There is something inexpressibly charming in falling in love and, surely, the whole pleasure lies in the fact that love isn't lasting.”


-i want it to last but i guess it won't be that charming after all.im sad that i feel bad.im sad that sometimes i don't understand.im sad that things aren't working for me.im sad that things are on the rocks.i pray for a brighter day tomorrow.i pray for peace of mind.goodnight!

H A P P Y N E W Y E A R (: 

(((!good vibes!))) for the year ahead

thank you 2010

i only have 24 hours left of 2010 and if i were given the chance i would want to spend it with richard in bora.but things aren't workin for me and him the way i want it so here i am, not-so-alone(because im with msi, my laptop) in my sofa bed tryin to console myself.
anyway, a lot of things happened to me this year-- i went through the toughest and fortunately still came out
A L I V E. so as a year ender, here is the TOP 10 LIST of the things im thankful about.

im weari our white pre-cli
uniform

10. im thankful for the chance of bein able to wear my white uniform again.after 2 years of bein a certified out of school youth, i decided to be KOLEHIYALA again.this time, il finish it up :)

9. im thankful that im bein able to go to church regularly now.i know that i havent been really faithful in keepin the doctrine but God knows my desire to go to church and hear songs and just keep the sabbath.

8. im thankful that finally, i was able to move on with my hurts and pains.i learned to forgive and let go.such feeling was unexplainable.very lightweight to my soul.im talkin about rico.

kahit saan bitbit ko yan

7. im thankful for honey, my sister.she had been an avid supporter of me.she gives me favors which i dont deserve! sisters are angels.

6. im thankful for my laptop.i have soo many things to accomplish both in academics and extra curriculars but life is easier because of this 14 inch technology.

5. im thankful for Globe Broadband.luckily the room im renting now has an unbelievably cheap fee for internet-- would you believe i only pay 324.00 per month? and dude, its 24/7 :)

4.F R I E N D S-- i would have lost my sanity if not for them. the roughest and toughest wont be as BIG deal as it is if i dont have em :)





3. R I C H A R D-- JUST READ THE PREV POSTS IN THIS BLOG

2. im thankful for F A M I L Y-- special mention are: doc memai, anty da, lola, mom & darl. elaborating on the things they did for me would be endless.i heart you guys soo much.

1. L I F E. sanity and insanity.indifference and love.cruelty and kindness.tranquility and disturbance.war and peace.extreme joy and depressive sadness.all these and more will count nothin if we dont have life.thank you God for lettin me borrow up to now.

goodbye 2010, it has been a great year.i learned.
hello 2011, im sooo ready :))

hey ☼, where are you?

its the 29th of december, im stoked because its almost 2011.im at baybay in doc Memai's dental clinic because her assistant, cheche, called in sick today.then, yaya joy is also not-so-healthy since yesterday.


well nothin really much to do here except answer calls, "brightsmile, good mornin" and sit on the thinkin chair and  chat with friends on facebook and go along with whatever matt (my 6 yr old cousin) has to say and do.


its still rainin softly and quietly outside-- its been 5 days that i dint get to see the sun.i just solely count on coffee to keep me awake on a very tempting weather like this.


whats on my mind today? my top list new year's resolution..hmmm ♫♪♫