day 3 of the 30-day challenge

Day 03- Your views on drugs and alcohol.

this is quite difficult because i have to be downright honest with my views without bein one-sided at all.i had my share of the highs alcohol has to offer when i was still working at convergys.don't get me wrong, i wasn't peer pressured.i just want to experience how it is to be taken over with booze.

so yes, there was a certain high alcohol made me feel and experience. if taken in just the right amount, i think (atleast at that time) that it gives me the right amount of confidence which can make me dance like there's no tomorrow and dance like there was no one watching.

but here's the downside.worse than being piss drunk is being pissed drunk alone! yes, there were times when my drinking buddies were not available for some reason so just for the heck of drinking, i start to just gulp it down alone.and man, it doesn't make me high at all.plus, nursing a bad hangover in the morning wasn't my thing.thank God for aspirins and cold water.

well, the closest thing i had with drugs is taking paracetamol when i have fever and mefenamic when in pain and yeah the aspirin.so what's my take then? im not judgemental and hypocrite to those people who are into booze.they have a fairly good reason why they are hooked to it and maybe, just maybe, nobody is helping them to get out from this addictive vice.

the sad thing is, no matter how we rationalize it, the bad is by far outweigh the good.

day 2 of the 30-day challenge

Day 02- Where you'd like to be in 10 years.


i wanna settle in Australia.i have always been inspired of their high standard of living and education.and yess, you might find it very 'maarte' of me, but i wanna hear my kids speak in a british accent :) imma go about chasin my australian dream :)) buton second thoughts..if i would have lots and lots of money by then, i see myself building a quiet yet jolly home here in pinas.

A prosperous developed country, Australia is the world's thirteenth largest economy. Australia ranks highly in many international comparisons of national performance such as human development, quality of life, health care, life expectancy, public education, economic freedomand the protection of civil liberties and political rights.^[12] Australia is a member of the United Nations, G20, Commonwealth of Nations, ANZUS, OECD, APEC, Pacific Islands Forum and the World Trade Organization.

day 1 of the 30-day challenge

Day 01- Your current relationship status, if single discuss how single life is.

i wanted to write about a happy and amazingly fulfilling love story slash relationship status. unluckily, my relationship status as of today is on the rocks.i say we've been on a not soo good misunderstanding which actually ended up with me logging off from our skype sessions.we get into feisty word war and i hate it.i hate it that i have to defend myself of things which aren't true.

he said he is complicated and im not ready to take that.i said we can simplify things and move forward but he has some other issues about how i behave, who my friends are, about my facebook privacy setting and all that crap.

i've been trying so hard to be understanding but its not appreciated and its not seen.

so to cap it all off-- im technically in a relationship as of today since we haven't talked since last night.im blocked from his facebook and no sms too.whew! one week into the new year and things aren't as good as it gets.
im crossin my fingers for better things to come and better things to look forward to.

the 30-day challenge :)

not my thiiing

it's my first week as a practising CI and guess what? i dont like it a bit.this week is duty week and besides from waking up early, there's practically nothin to do in the station than talk and check my classmates' notebooks and requirements.

the day is always a drag in the hospital and at the end of the day, i dont have anything to be proud of except i have a boring day once again.and surprisingly, without anything done, my energy is drained when i get back in my room.

aww well, some things are not really meant for us and i guess being a CI is not for me, obviously.i don't like standing around without making a difference and being unproductive.i hope next duty week would be something practical and beneficial.looking forward to another day :)

fleeting thoughts

“There is something inexpressibly charming in falling in love and, surely, the whole pleasure lies in the fact that love isn't lasting.”


-i want it to last but i guess it won't be that charming after all.im sad that i feel bad.im sad that sometimes i don't understand.im sad that things aren't working for me.im sad that things are on the rocks.i pray for a brighter day tomorrow.i pray for peace of mind.goodnight!

H A P P Y N E W Y E A R (: 

(((!good vibes!))) for the year ahead