my top 5 phobias

look at me i'm 23 beautiful a sight to see tonight ♪♫ i know i am more than a kid but there are still things i am afraid of. and i know that i am a legend in progress (ahemm) but for now, i can't help it-- i still freak out whenever i am faced with my fears, these evils i am still trying (and will forever try) to overcome.

1. cockroaches! (esp the flying kind)

-there is this one anecdote i will never forget back in hs.i lived in a dormitory and that place was not your typical-hygienic-comf'table living quarter.we are not to be blamed because we were teeners then and crushes and sports and physics were far more important than cleanliness (eww!) so i have this classmate (which luckily was not my room mate) who never failed to have food in reserve everywhere.she kept them in her locker, in her bags, and yes on her bed.one time, it was minutes before lights off when her scream echoed the whole dormitory because a cockroach had interested on her junks and guess what?..(i know this is horrible) that cockroach went inside her left ear!! yaykks! when she tried to let it out, that lil scary monster flew around their room for 2 mins then finally went out to continue to fly around the hallway where we were hanging out to study.i literally jumped off from my plastic chair and shouted more than anyone else.

2. crossing the street

-i have 2 near street accidents in grade school.luckily, my guardian angel stopped the car just in time to protect the not-so-careful me! despite that, i can still vividly remember the nervousness i felt in those 2 incidents.i know i had ice chills running down my spine and my heart was throbbing like it was about to explode literally.from the normal lubb-dubb, it went a crazy boom-boom-boom! and realizing that now, i guess the reason why i can't get over that fear is because i never tried telling andy or mama or any adult at that time because more than anything, i was afraid of being scold for carelessness :(

3. needles and the like! (and i took nursing at that)

-admitted because of hypokalemia, i embarrassed myself at the ER more than once because of being a cry-baby over needles and IV's.hypokalemia is when the potassium level in our bodies deplete and it is very important to replenish it asap or else, the heart, kidney and our muscles in general would cease to function.i was to have an IV whether i like it not or i like it not! *lol** it took 3 nurses and 3 screams before the IV was put in place. it maybe psychological in nature or i may just have really low pain threshold, needles will never be a good experience for me.

4. getting lost
-it is very important for me to have a personal guide and a map whenever i go and check out a new place.generally, it will take me 4 or 5 times to go back and forth from point A to B before i can go there alone.yes, i am a self-confessed no sense of direction.apparently, being in an unfamiliar territory still gives me a knot in my tummy.

5. death
-you know how people say you have to live your life each day as if it is your last? even if i try hard to do that, i'm still afraid to die. it's not an everyday thought but sometimes when i'm alone i think of death and it frightens me. there are a lot of things i still need to prove, tasks i need to accomplish, and dreams i need to fulfill. if we were given the chance to know when the inevitable would come and take us i know i will beg for another chance at life. i had my chance of pain and heartaches and mishaps but i rather experience it than not feel it at all.

i want to be bold and strong and fearless (i'm a legend in progress, remember?). and these 5 things are just few of my many other weaknesses. when my rational mind takes over, i realize how stupid these phobias are. but i know too that no matter how insane and weak these things make me look, these are the very things that make me human! i wonder how the world would turn out if no one is afraid of anything. it wouldn't be as thrilling and exciting as it is now perhaps. so yes, we are all superhumans in our own right and we may get embarrassed for the phobias we have but remember that life is better this way! superman ain't superman without his kryptonite! x